3.9.09

HIJO DE CHINGADA

hi. the first thing i heard getting out of work yesterday was "well fuck you too nigga." i feel focused. i am impatient for people to read new work. there are a lot of people driving those golf cart type things for disabled people, in the area where i work. sometimes when i am sitting outside on break i expect to hear a slow droning, and then get surrounded by people in the golf cart things, each armed with something sharp, and they slice up my legs while i scream. an old woman kepet yelling "merlot" at me today at work. i will be fired soon. i don't like when peopple treat me like part of their purchase. you will read about me in the news after i bury a bottle of merlot in someone's head. i am very sad lately. very sad. one thought i have a lot if "i feel bad about everything." does that make sense? are there any schools in chicago that would let me go there to study martin heidegger? i am almost done writing this dual novella book. i am not sure i want them to be together still. one is tentatively called BOOM SLEEP and the other is called HURT POPULATIONS. i feel focused now. like i have spent an entire year sitting in a fire made of ice cubes and now i know how to breathe inside of it. what a terrible thing the fact that you can see faces that hide so much you will never know. what a terrible thing that you've trained your face to do the same thing. i will crush everything i've ever done every time i do something else. i will post the covers for HUMAN BEINGS ARE TOYS soon. if i had money i would print up all my own shit. i don't know if i believe in myself. does anyone want to start a grindcore band with me? i can sing. i will wear dickies and boots and no shirt and just scream into a microphone while pointing at the audience like they are shit. we can be called FATHER/SON MAKE-OUT PARTY. make your mother cry. here's a handwritten poem:



(my area code is 312)

11 comments:

pb said...

I'm sorry you are sad. And I hope you don't get fired. Getting fired sucks. I do hope you apply to philosohpy programs or at least take a class. That would be great for you.

sam pink said...

this just happened:

i went to take a bite of cereal and the previous bite that i still had in my mouth (chewed up) fell back into the bowl.

DJ Berndt said...

Don't worry, some day you will make millions. You just have to offend the right people.

gamefaced said...

heidegger is the shiz.

xTx said...

i dont even know or cant even spell hediegger.

it sounds racist.

i hug sam pink with all six of my tentacles

sam pink said...

this post sucks.

ana c. said...

i know i'm a stranger but i felt like saying "please don't be sad" and "i want to be in your band and play the maracas or something cause i can't play any instrument but i want to be in your band"

Matt DeBenedictis said...

FATHER/SON MAKE-OUT PARTY Sounds like it could be a great band. Form it and only play Florida. I don't live there but play there and point that finger at them. They neeeed your finger.

I believe in you.

I don't believe in much.

Anonymous said...

Sadness is the default mentality of the universe. The universe is a sad mind that plays with us to keep happy. Imagine if your toys started crying. You'd drop them and stamp on them. That's what the universe is doing to us.

Imagine if you threw away your sad toys but then you'd open your xmas prezzies and they'd be inside the new packaging, crying.


Now you know.

albie

daniel bailey said...

i want to play guitar in your band

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